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I am sorry,lately I didn`t draw at all *sigh* But here you go with uh…my ladyknight?

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  • Question: No I was not apart of those ''several people who you upsetted''. I am just a person who sees a drained, deflated person who has so much potential and talent and it bothers me to see someone so amazing, like you, this way. Please be happy, you deserve it. - Anonymous
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    I will try to,thanks for caring and cheering me up,sir Anon. though i don`t know if you are sir or not but sir Anon sounds nice and also i like knights,hahah.guess it was something of self-cheering

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This is Jingle,my chimera OC.He came through some minor design changes but I love him anyway.

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This post contains my personal rant,which means that it is not related to my art.If you don`t want to read it,please scroll down and enjoy your time; thank you.

I`m sorry for hurting those around me,even when I don`t mean it.

For making them feel worthless when I don`t want it.

For everything you have to deal with when I am at my worst.

For not being with you when you want it.

For being confusing with my words.

For being not strong enough and always being too weak.

For showing too much emotions when you don`t need it.

I apologise for everything you had to go through because of me,for causing you any trouble,any damage. Possibly I don`t deserve being with people because I hurt them too muchbut I`m already afraid of talking to those I don`t know and the thought of being not worth anyone`s attention is one of these ugly ones I already have in my head in my mental self-harm arsenal.I understand how self-destructive these are but when I`m overstressed or proven being…not such a good person,these are the only which come into my head.

I`m tired of being strong,of always being ready to help no matter what is going on in my own life and always being positive because others need it. I`m tired of carrying everything on my back,of being misunderstood,of people seeing anything behind my words but words themself. Why can`t I just say how I feel so people would get it without looking for hidden meanings?Though people tend to look for these…sadly.Because of those I think they just get conflicted when facts are being just said straight.I don`t judge.I have no rights to judge anyone. But I`m crushed and stomped into dirt. I am broken. And I can tell it. I wasn`t strong enough NOT to post this. Recovery from stress now takes longer time,like…instead from one night sleep now it takes the whole week.I`m conflicted myself and feel like someone poured a bucket of whatever all over my head.

I want to stop.Please forgive me everyone who had to ever deal with me.I`m just a little tired human.I`m not all-mighty.I can`t even help myself at times.I`m sorry that I couldn`t help you.I don`t know what matters anymore.

-Me.

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$15 commission for Dreamer.

Also it is the last one charr,it was fun to draw them.You can contact me via email: inotuklonist@gmail.com

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  • Question: Don't ever feel like you are not worth speaking to, you are funny, talented, and someone who would make a lovely best friend. You have such a lovely personality and I bet that will reflect on your outer appearance too. I bet your smile is the thing that out brightens the sun, because it is warm and lovely to see. Especially after a cloudy day. Don't you ever feel like no one likes you, because I am here. Have a wonderful day, I appreciate you and may the stars light up your soul with beauty. - Anonymous
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    Thank you,kind anon.I feel kind of distressed right now as I did upset several people at once yesterday,one of who is(was?) my very good friend.But thank you a lot for your kind words.

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charrismaticthiefshu:

awkwardinot:

$15 Commission for Dreamer

It is the one before last charr I had to draw,so after the next one I will probably never draw charrs again because I don`t own the game for drawing my own charr.Unless you commission me,of course.

You can contact me via email: inotuklonist@gmail.com

you draw amazing charr! ;o;

Ah,thank you!;u; I am really glad to hear that

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$15 Commission for Dreamer

It is the one before last charr I had to draw,so after the next one I will probably never draw charrs again because I don`t own the game for drawing my own charr.Unless you commission me,of course.

You can contact me via email: inotuklonist@gmail.com

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yondamoegi:

awkwardinot:

Another $15 Charr Commission!

Reminder: you can contact me via email: inotuklonist@gmail.com

damn, Inot! Your pictures look great!

Thank you!I`m working hard on them ;Д;

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magister-delina:

awkwardinot:

Another $15 Charr Commission!

Reminder: you can contact me via email: inotuklonist@gmail.com

Wait a tic, is that Keziah?

Her name is Lornala,at least that is what I`ve got from reference screenshots

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Another $15 Charr Commission!

Reminder: you can contact me via email: inotuklonist@gmail.com

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